Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Song of sequence!!!

Here you are!! back to the keys... I still cherish the feeling of pen and paper and jotting out. Technologies have made it easier or maybe say less messy but have resulted in sharp decline of emote, feel, and connect!!
Lets talk about .. what!! Forbidden fruits!!
Well.. I cant say that things will be better for me.. as what's stored in the dead man's chest!!Who knows!! I m mercifully trying and the process seems awesome. What i need to do... write a poetry !! I want to write books, read them and re-write them.  I want to explore... I want to be you!! Last some weeks have gave me lots of surprises!! :) you were one of them. See.. I have a natural gift for which girls fall... but a predator cares for only his pray. "The habit of talking too much generally impact woman tremendously" Lifted from Garima's sms. :). I need to .. have to.. for me at least. You know.. after you i had series of on-off relationship. I had no idea what i was looking for. and you know what, the bar is raised so much by you being in my life for almost 2 years that it has become yardstick and i don't know if you know this or not but there is no gal in this world who can match up !! thats for fact!!! I unwillingly or unknowingly killed my every relationship. Enjoying single-hood since 2 yrs or more. but i don't love that, its fine otherwise but i know how important it is to have somebody to lean on, to fight, to care, to love , to be loved. Different strokes ... !! Now i have left the leftover of pandora's box!! I m not trying, in fact. . . I am almost certain of not getting married!!! I tasted the forbidden fruit,! and rightly said by vivekanand!!"Mistakes should not go unpunished". Being such an ardent admirer of that man!! how can i let myself go unpunished!!
I somehow blame me and situations at the same time. We should have talked and discussed!! I hate my being single status and almost impossible for any girl to fill in the vacuum!! There are so many possible ways to get out of this gross feeling but none of  it is in my hands.

Now, you!! I know you have lots to face and the pain you are.... but not fully!! You don't talk to me.... never tells me anything!!      ! I know the ghost of past will always be there, but i perfectly believe we have the power to overpower the ghost!! I have never written you off my best friend and wellwishers. Lets talk Dear!!     Together we can .... You don't know how bad i felt reading your message in facebook!!
Now i don't cry.... have gone through many incidents but i was shocked to know i cud not cry. i want to sometime. it washes the soul. But i can not!!! What have i become!! Green Goblin!! may be!

Listen!! Write ... write sometimes.. to me!! To help you!! No!!! To help me!! Us!! Everybody!! 

Friday, March 26, 2010

Song of Sequence!!


Indeed a Happy day... happy birth day!! Lots of wishes!

Dream is a place where wish and fear meets! When the intensity of fear and wish equals.. it becomes a nightmare! - Shantaram

Indeed dreams .... I am lacking expressions, sometime when you need to express and can't, its terrible feeling.
Want to write a lot but i don't know they are not coming up!
Now is the time i should settle down a bit, not sudden break but yeah start applying breaks. But in what manner, I have missed you badly in last 4 years... 4 years ... kitna samay ho gaya!! Kitna kuch badal gaya... Change has been so omnipresent that it swept off civilization with it...

And you know what!! I wonder most of the time that the spark that i am missing in my ways,.. life.. thoughts ... everywhere.... is you.

Life would have been so much better...
Have you seen 3 idiots?? Must be.. I love that song.... "Give me some sunshine.... " (Nahi suna to abhi suno!!)

I am reading a lot!! Quite good stuffs... Thanks a lot!!! See you made me a voracious reader!! (Still kneeling down n thanking for Sophie's World! )

We deserved a better way...

You said I killed you--haunt me, then! The murdered do haunt their murderers. I believe--I know that ghosts have wandered on earth. Be with me always--take any form--drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!
- Wuthering Heights!!

Thanks for this ... Lovely book.... I still shiver when i read this..

Yeah what is song of sequence?? Any suggestions.? The idea that i had by that is no more alive! Well... Let me know!

I need to talk to you.... Thoda consultation chahiye!!

Let's make it beautiful!! Song of Sequence!